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June 27, 2008

Check out the visitor

Filed under: martians,rain — writebrainit @ 1:43 am


On Tuesday, we had another rain stormy kind of morning. I was talking with a co-worker when I noticed this odd shape in the steam on our window (above our printers). I told her to look and she said ‘what at those two lung like things’. I said, ‘yeah, but I was thinking it looked more like a martian-face thing.’ I showed it to other people, they thought it was kinda cool and weird too. I know I was mocked when I took some pictures of it. Me, I am going to allow myself to live with the delusion that a martian was holding his face against our window during the night to see what was going on in our office.

Meanwhile, I read at my writing group last night to fairly positive response. There were some good questions brought up. I love it that a couple of people are so good at finding repetitive words close together. Some of what they were discussing and suggesting was for more information that I am sure I want to give at this point. Truth be told, I am not even sure this is going into the book. I originally wrote it to give birth to the sociopath, but the more I develop the novel, the less I think this will fit in (however it is a good beginning for a prequel).

June 23, 2008

Top 20 Fears

Filed under: fears,Top 20 — writebrainit @ 11:44 am

This recent occurrence at the PRIDE festivities got me to thinking how cautious I have become as I have become older – less uninhibited. I had planned on counting down, but the reality is that I don’t know that there is a specific order for things that scare me. I wondered what are the things of which I am I am truly fearful? So I sat to figure it out – this is the list I came up with:

1. Being lonely (not alone – I need alone time often)
2. Losing one of my nieces and nephews
3. Losing a sibling
4. Something reaching up and biting my junk when sitting in an outhouse
5. Disappearing
6. Another 9/11
7. Walking alone in unsafe areas
8. Being violently beaten
9. Losing my ability to hear, see or speak
10. Spiders
11. Feeling helpless
12. Gangs
13. Finding someone in my home
14. Angry ghosts
15. Elvis’ passing (my dog)
16. Being attacked in my sleep
17. Dying unintentionally for a cause
18. Losing hope
19. Having my heart broken
20. Losing a close friend

What are your top fears?

PRIDE – from Celebration to Fear

Filed under: fear,Pat O Show,PRIDE,Rick's Boatyard — writebrainit @ 11:23 am


Omaha PRIDE was this weekend. It truly was a celebration down at Lewis and Clark Landing in Omaha, NE. I went down on Saturday evening and would have brought my camera – but it was raining when I left and since I didn’t know how long it would be raining – I decided against bringing it.

People of all sorts were down there. It’s been a few years since I was able to attend and since I am not a big fan of crowds, I really liked the amount of space we had to celebrate. There was a couple of musical acts (okay), some talking and some drinking. After hanging out for about 2ish hours, I decided that my knee was hurting enough to sit down and luckily my friend Pat O and his band was performing at Rick’s Boatyard – so I went up to sit and enjoy for a bit. It was fun watching the crowd leave as the PRIDE celebration died down – some heard Pat and his band and joined us up on the deck to listen and dance (I wasn’t dancing, lol).

Watching the people leave I realized how far away my car was, where I was parked and how dark it was. Initially I had every intention of staying to listen to Pat’s band until about midnight when I planned on heading home and fairly quickly I became a little nervous. I was in a downtown, close to a park heavily populated with all types and interests and I was leaving a gay celebration. There has been such a focus this year on the violent crimes against gays in this day and age. I decided I didn’t want to be one and waited for a large crowd to leave the PRIDE celebration and walked behind them to my car, with my keys poking out defensively in my left hand and my phone in my right with 911 typed in and ready to push send if anything happened. Funny, no, I take that back, Sad how a celebration can turn dark so quickly.

June 22, 2008

New Additions…

Filed under: creativity,pets,Sonny and Cher,writing — writebrainit @ 1:23 pm




TO THE FAMILY – Please meet SUNNY AND SHARE (aren’t they beautiful). They joined our little family or menagerie yesterday.

I have to say on a brief note, whatever happened that camping trip – I love the creativity it has caused. So far I have written the basics of 3, count them, 3 new short stories. Maybe a little get away to doing nothing is going to be needed more often.

June 16, 2008

Worth It – Waste It


This weekend I didn’t get to watch as many movies as I usually do, but I did get a lot of reading and writing done.

Fablehaven: Rise of the Evening Star – this is the second in the Fablehaven series. If you have not started to read the series yet, I recommend it. I believe it to be a very creative idea for a stories. The characters are enjoyable even when evil. This one does a good job of making you not totally aware of who is fighting for good and evil until it is absolutely necessary to find out. Kendra is now blessed with new powers which she continues to learn throughout the story and since no one is able to compare what happened to her in the first story – there continue to be surprises which I am sure will surface in future stories. Thankfully the third in the series is out Fablehaven: Grip of the Shadow Plague but the fourth in the series doesn’t come out until April 2009. I have also picked up his new book and it is the next I am starting on – The Candy Shop War. Brandon Mull could easily become one of my favorite writers.

I made quite a bit of work towards finishing Lamb: The Gospel According to Biff, Christ’s Childhood Pal by Christopher Moore. I started the book several years ago and got about halfway through. An old classmate of mine has re-perked the interest for me to finish it. I am enjoying it, but there is so much sarcasm and Biff basically claims to have invented just about everything (I think he just discovered matches, lol). For some reason it is a lot to take in – I think it will become one of my car books to read when I am on the road and possibly waiting for friends and/or appointments.

Now I have not been on a good run of movies lately – in fact, have been more than a little irritated about them. I recently watched The Sasquatch Gang and while I realize that I only have myself to blame – they are promoting it as made by the same people who make Napoleon Dynamite, so I had some hope of enjoying it. I didn’t.

Last night I considered going to see The Happening as I love M Night Shyamalan’s stuff and Mark Wahlberg – so it was win, win, right? Well, I made the mistake of looking at the yahoo critiques/users ratings and saw that it is getting a C by the critique and the Yahoo users are giving it a C-. Well, that and some article on Yahoo’s home page saying ‘nothing happens in The Happening,’ swayed me to reconsider.

So I stuck in movie which I have been wanting to see called Breakfast With Scot. It’s a gay themed movie which is absolutely delightful. The story is great, the actors are spectacular. The message is wonderful and the feeling I got from finishing that movie was very happy and peaceful. This one is a movie I highly recommend and give 5 stars to as well.

On Writing

Filed under: screenplays,writing — writebrainit @ 12:11 pm

Initially, this weekend I was struggling – getting re-aquanted with old friends and lots of reading. I was struggling where to pick up in my writing – what I wanted to work on. Thursday night was spent getting re-aquainted. Friday we spent much of the day at the different sites in Nebraska City. Saturday – I finished reading my book and opted out of doing more site seeing.

After finishing the book, I decided it was time to really focus on some writing – the weather was on our side and just encouraged free thought and peace. So I was looking through my notebooks and found, not one but two chapters of different books I had written. My book about the the group of friends which centers around a tree house – and another story that I know how it is going to go, what happens in it and how it ends, but have not really been able to get it on paper – I haven’t found the voice.

For the tree house story – I found a chapter that points me in the direction I was hoping the story would go. I just had been stuck. I was able to pick up the pen to paper and start writing again – I think I finished another two chapters – I have to get it transferred to Word to see really how much I wrote, but I did good. I have even figured out how I am going to go from the part of the book I am currently writing to the next and I feel good about it. It’s nice to have direction.

The other story (I am not sure how long it is going to be if it is a novella, novel or short story.) It was actually an idea that I had developed for a screeplay, but that is such a different style of writing – I was spending so much time on learning to write screenplays that I didn’t write as much. I also had always pictured the main character as a young me (I am not sure how many others do this in there story, but the stories are all going to be me in one way or another). Anyhow, I knew that when this story actually translated to script – the main character is going to have to be female for it to sell – so I thought, why not just write it like that. I had forgotten that I had a good start on the story, but found it all when looking for paper and pen. So I believe I once again ow C&M a thank you.

And We’re On –

Filed under: Arbor Day Farms,Lake Victoria,Lied Lodge,Nebraska City — writebrainit @ 11:48 am

The weekend was wonderful – I went camping with a friend and his partner. This friend is one of my grade shool friends whom I haven’t seen since I left Montana after 5th grade. I recently found him through the use of the internet and learned he lived fairly close to me. He and his partner go camping about once a month and made it work, so that I could join them. After the weather on Wednesday, we were blessed with beautiful weather for the next 3 days. C&M have a fantastic camper which is much more spacious than the living area I had when I lived in the basement several years ago. They were perfect hosts, but did not allow me to help enough (I mean if someone is cooking all your meals, it would be nice to at least be able to pay them back a little by washing dishes). I have to admit that I loved how easy they made it for me to relax.

We were camping at Victorian Acres outside of Nebraska City, NE. The campground was nice (the campsites were way too close together, but we did have a nice site due to a tree being between the sites). On Friday we went and walked around some of the land around the Lied Lodge – which was beautiful. We were all a little disappointment with going to the Arbor Day Farm Tree Adventure. It was not all it was cracked up to be – for the $6.50 we were told we got to not only experience the Treehouse and surrounding trails but would get a dessert at the Lied Lodge and to pick out a free tree. Now after C&M paid she handed over the coupon commenting that the dessert was free with paid meal. Had I been alone, I probably would have insisted on a refund as I felt it was very deceptive. Not only was the coupon with a a meal – it was a dinner and the resturant was closed from 2-5. We did get our free tree though – I believe it is a blue spruce.

We then found this cute little schizophrenic dinner in town. The resturant had several decors going on as did the menu. We were extremely disappointed with the meal we chose – I won’t go into it here, it just did not live up to it’s advertising at all.

At the campground, however, I ate like a king – the meals were very big and very healthy. I couldn’t have asked for two nicer hosts. C&M thank you for making this weekend so wonderful.

June 10, 2008

Worth It – Waste It

Filed under: movies — writebrainit @ 12:21 pm

Recently I have not been so into movies to watch. I am having a hard time finding ones I want to spend the time watching. So I have been catching up on my tv throughout the year (I tend to tape so many shows, I play catch up throughout the summer). Although this year, it appears I will be all caught up before the new fall season starts.

I did recently catch a few flicks:

Waste of Time or I want those hours back:
Semi-Pro (normally I can find a funny seen or two in his films – I think he’s great, but can tend to overact) This film was horrible
10,000 B.C. – uhm… they spoke English and had fully functional cities? Need I say more?

Worth it:
Step Up 2 – gotta admit that it’s not as good as the first one (and I know there is probably a select group of people who would even agree that the first on was worth it, but I liked it).
Meet the Spartans – I know this will also only appeal to a select few – oiled, muscle men, slapstick humor, I personally don’t think there was any way for them to go wrong?

June 9, 2008

I LOOKED GOOD!

Filed under: high school.,psychic,reunions — writebrainit @ 11:06 pm

So at the reunion – it was funny seeing this 8×10 black and white of my senior pic hanging up on the wall. I had one friend who kept laughing about how different I looked (and he was definitely not one to talk himself – he had a lot of hair gone to nothing himself, lol). As we were joking around, about how good we all looked back then (although, lol hairstyles for some were a little questionable). I made the comment that ‘I would have done me,’ which caused a few to laugh, though I am not sure why – I would have – although I don’t think I was hot by any means back then, but looking back, hmmm…

We also had a psychic there who – our visit didn’t exactly start out right when she told me that ‘I had a nice talk with your wife earlier.’
‘No you didn’t’
‘Yes, I did.’
‘No you didn’t.’
‘Are you sure.’
‘Yes, I am sure.’
‘Let me ask you this, are you sleeping with anyone in this room.’

I laugh, ‘No.’
‘Well someone here wants to.’
Now, I know that I should have asked, but I didn’t – I was caught off guard by the whole argument about my ‘wife.’ That I didn’t ask the obvious question of ‘who?’ or ‘could you point him out?’

She then moved on to ask me who Jacob is – ‘I don’t know a Jacob.’
‘Yes, you do.’
‘No, I don’t.’
‘You don’t know any Jacobs?’
‘Oh I have a nephew Jacob.’
‘No this is someone who will be come very important to you in the next 5 months. Soon you are going to receive a phone call from someone in your past who is going to start asking you a lot of questions.’
‘Is this someone I know?’
‘Yes, but the questions are going to make you very uneasy and you need to hang up.’
‘I need to hang the phone up?’
‘Yes. A change is going to happen with management at your work – you are going to be very upset about it, but it is going to be a very good thing for you.’
There was something about a bunch of money from somewhere that I cannot remember because she started telling me things like ‘do you want to hear about money, tell me yes.’
‘yes.’
‘you are going to come into a big amount,’ now the note she wrote looks like it says something about insurance ‘freestill.’ I cannot read her writing very well. ‘You need to buy new underwear, ask me why.’
‘Why.’
‘Because you are going to lose a lot of weight this year, and if you keep trying to wear the pair you are wearing, they will be tangled up around your feet. Who is Bob.’
‘I don’t know,’
‘Yes you do.’
Here we go again.
‘No I don’t, or wait, I have a brother in law named Bob.’
‘No I don’t think that is it. Bob is going to become a very important confidant to you in the next 30 days. Have you ever heard of the foot detox patch.’
‘Yes I have tried them.’
‘Did they work?’
‘I don’t think so, they kind of hurt my foot and just left a really salty smell.’
‘They would be very good for you, you should get more or the Tahitian Noni – both would do you very well. Thank you and send the next one over.’

Now I don’t have it all perfect I believe due to the few margaritas that I had and her handwriting is worse than most of the doctors I have read in the past. But is was fun, and looks to be a good year for me.

Nostalgia

Filed under: friendships,high school.,memories,reunions — writebrainit @ 11:22 am

I am a nostalgic person. I love my history, family history and memories. I love the pictures, stories and feelings associated with my past memories. I glorify the past and tend to focus on remembering the good things. I love maintaining old friendships, renewing lost relationships and just checking in with people from my past. I know that I tend to glorify the past – it is seldom that I remember the bad memories associated with a time or person from my past – and instead will turn it into a story or get try to get some humor out of the questionable memories. I do this with the people I care about or who meant something to me in the past. Don’t get me wrong, there are those who are associated with bad memories and I want pretty much nothing to do with them (of course, it takes a sort of ptsd that their name brings to my response system to make that list).

From high school there are only a couple who cause that kind of panic for me and since it is 25 years since high school – I am sure that with that person, they don’t even remember making me feel less than a person or ‘hurting my feelings’ for lack of a better phrase. I had my 25th Reunion this weekend and I had a really good time. I was kind of fearful of going to it for several reasons – one being, at the last reunion I felt like I was back in high school – people still hung in their groups (and I was one of them) – we know who makes us comfortable and who doesn’t. I was much more shy than I typically am and I didn’t like how I felt or the box I put myself in. I even went so far to ignore a guy from my class who was calling me over when I was on the way to the bathroom. Not because I am stuck up, but because I don’t think we ever talked in high school – we ran in completely different crowds and I think I allowed my self-esteem to interfere and wonder ‘he doesn’t really want to talk with me.’ Truth be told, he probably just wanted to ask someones name who I was talking with. But I was so embarrassed that I allowed myself to be such an ass as to ‘pretend I didn’t know they were calling me over.’ That’s not who I am. I think another reason was my being out. I didn’t attend the 15 because I was at a point where I was coming out to more and more people and didn’t really want to be the ‘gay classmate’ who came to the reunion (plus the way the 15 was set up, it really appeared as if you needed to be a couple to attend and I wasn’t at that point).

At the 20 I have to admit that I am sure that was some of my discomfort. I was comfortably out, but this was my high school classmates who hadn’t all seen how I had evolved and how ‘comfortable’ I was with myself. I know that the baggage I brought from the past was my own, I own that. So here we are at the 25th and I worried that I would turn back into the same fool who had attended the 20th. I was worried about not having anyone to talk with or just hanging with the same crowd and becoming all ‘shy’ again. I do know that I have several classmates who are gay as well and have partners, but I am also aware that I appear to be the ‘token gay’ when it comes to the reunions. I don’t know that any attend besides myself (well, at least any who are out).

I thoroughly enjoyed myself this weekend. I got to talk and catch up with some people who meant a lot to me in the past, I got to socialize with people from the past, that while I probably didn’t back then, it was nice to check in and get re-acquainted. I had fun, I ate, drank, played volleyball and just had a really good time. One of the nice things for me, is that I have this group who is doing this weight loss challenge – several are from my high school past in one form or another – it was fun for me to see how we tended to hang around together at times at this event. There is a real sense of security in those friendships. It’s nice how true friends from our past can become very good friends of our present.

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